Wednesday, September 14, 2011

seasons change

I have heard it said many times before that people come in to your life for seasons. And I have seen this folklore play out in my life year after year. I'm still shocked when I see certain people go.

I dated someone that I've known for 10 years. We dated for about 3 weeks. We live on opposite coasts. From where I sat we were on different pages in life and I had to make a grown up decision that he didn't necessarily agree with. We haven't really spoken since, and not because I hate him and don't want to have anything to do with him(we're not in high school) but because I've honestly been super busy. And the nature of our relationship has never been to talk every day, except when we were together.
So the other day I was perusing on facebook and noticed he had deleted me as a friend. When I asked him about it he said that I obviously didn't want to speak to him, he didn't want to block my blessings, its hard to love someone who doesn't love you back and he wishes me the best. I won't even begin to get into my thoughts about his explanation but I didn't think this is where we'd be. We've been homies for 10 years, then we date for 3 weeks, it doesn't work out and you delete me from fb?? Are we in high school?? I'm lost.

It got me thinking. And as I was doing my bible study this morning, which was about Paul traveling to Malta, it made me think about how sometimes God will use storms to remove things from our lives, but we will be stubborn and try to hold on. I thought about all the people whose season was up but I just couldn't bear to part with and how much time I waisted. How many other lessons I could've learned.

So today I say goodbye to 10 years of friendship. And I also say thank you. I pray, as well, that God will show me when I'm being stubborn and trying to hold on to things that he's trying to remove. I don't want anything to hold me back and I don't want to hold anyone back either...

I hope you learn to see when seasons change....