Today at church the preacher said, "anyone else would've gone through what you've been through and been on medicine to get through it, or committed suicide, or gone into an addiction, but you are still standing here, without any of that". The basic premises? The things you've gotten through in your life, no one else could get through, any lesser or other person would've crumbled under the pressure. God will see you through. And this is so true. Have you ever thought about why you were able to get through your struggles the way that you have? Or the fact that anyone else probably would not have been able to get through those things and come out on the other end sane?
Last night I went out with a friend for a minute. And we were talking and I disclosed all the things I have been through in my life. He said it finally made sense why I was the way that I am (guarded). And I thought about that the whole ride home, and then when I heard this sermon today all I could think was "Thank you".
Thank you for making me exactly the way that I am. Thank you for this resilient spirit inside of me that has gotten me through every traumatic situation in my life.Thank you for that persistent sense of hope, even when things aren't going the way I want them to. The preacher was right, anyone else couldn't have gotten through it. And I may not have always handled my pain in the best way, but I tell you one thing, I am still standing. And I'm still happy. I'm sane. I'm a better person for it all. And I wouldn't change any of it.
I can't wait to see how God will use every single one of those experiences to help me fulfill the purpose he has set forth for my life. I love that I can relate to people on so many different levels because of what I've been through. And I'm proud to say there is more to me than what meets the eye.No one can guess what makes me tick. No one can believe the things I've been through. But I dare you to. Dig a little deeper, I am so esoteric....
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**oh and ps, the more I'm learning about how my struggles have helped to shape me, the more my guard is coming down. week by week. and that is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. I love being open**
