Lately I have been noticing things about people. And I want you to know I am saying this because I believe that when I am wrong I admit it and even when I am not wrong I am trying to make amends for what has happened. well sometimes I try to make amends, but sometimes I get fed up and I just have to walk away. But alas that is not what this blog is about really, this blog is about taking responsibility for your actions.
Have you ever noticed that when people get in an argument, or break up with someone, or get "played" by someone, or really get into almost any situation, it is almost always someone else's fault? I just don't get it. Its like no one is paying attention to the situation. Most times we are just believing whatever someone is telling us, and truly keeping our eyes open. And then when something happens to us, its no fault of our own, but the fault of someone else.
As adults, isn't the mature thing to do, to take responsibility for your actions? To admit that maybe you took some wrong turns, made some wrong choices, stayed in a situation too long for you own good? I mean come on. everything that happens to you is not someone else's fault. most times it is because you have made some pretty poor decisions. And i bet if you started to take responsibility, not only would it eliminate alot of drama from your life, but it would also help you to be able to get over situations quickly.
This is a concept that i was not able to comprehend for many years. When I was in college, everything that happened to me was someone else's fault. and boy did I have some drama. Now I still have some baby drama, because unfortunately, my "this person is ridiculous" radar is a little off lately, and I choose to put myself in situations with or around people that i should not be around. But its not like it used to be, and its so much easier for me to walk away, and for me to move on.
Life is a breath of fresh air when I can stand up and say you know what, yea my friend really hurt my feelings, but i can't blame her totally, she shouldn't have been that insensitive, but at the same time, i shouldn't have even been in that situation. Its so much easier to forgive, forget, and keep kick-pushin....
so grow up and take some responsibility for your actions.. please...i don't want to have to start calling people out by name...
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
I thought- september 2010
I thought us being such good friends would change your mind,
but then i finally got it.
You'll never see me that way and only fools sit and think something will change that's been the same forever.
You didn't even think i was worth a second chance
Because you never liked me enough in the first place
and then i remembered little things,
How you've never been there for one of my birthdays, or when my grandpa died you were MIA.
when the shit has hit the fan in your life I've been right there, but every month some new girl peaks your interest and i just can't compete.
Cause see i thought this friendship would change your mind. I thought you saw me like no one else did, but instead you just don't see me, like everyone else did. You're everything i want, I'll never be what you want.
I just thought you'd change your mind, I've been wrong a lot lately.
but then i finally got it.
You'll never see me that way and only fools sit and think something will change that's been the same forever.
You didn't even think i was worth a second chance
Because you never liked me enough in the first place
and then i remembered little things,
How you've never been there for one of my birthdays, or when my grandpa died you were MIA.
when the shit has hit the fan in your life I've been right there, but every month some new girl peaks your interest and i just can't compete.
Cause see i thought this friendship would change your mind. I thought you saw me like no one else did, but instead you just don't see me, like everyone else did. You're everything i want, I'll never be what you want.
I just thought you'd change your mind, I've been wrong a lot lately.
my 28th year
In approximately an hour and a half I will be 28 years old. I feel like this is a milestone birthday for me. Usually it wouldn't be, because in all reality 28 is just another year until, 29, and then 30 is the real milestone. But this year. This year took the cake for me.
lets get the count down...
#1. I decided to turn my entire life over to God, and I have to say it has been the best decision of my entire life. I couldn't have dreamed for anything better. It has been a rougher road then i thought it would be, but i have learned some invaluable life lessons, and i have seen things i may not have seen, had my eyes not been focused on him.
#2. i moved into my own place with a friend of my, which in turn turned into the fiasco of the century when she left to move in with her boyfriend. I struggled with my budget at this point. but all in all i made it through. And though i have sworn off roommates for the rest of my life, and though my feelings were hurt beyond belief, it was a lesson that had to be learned.
#3. my best friend, moved back to Cali, leaving me almost completely alone and without my ace. without the one person who i can be completely myself around.... sad day. but i have learned to fend on my own. with only 2 real friends on my side.
#4. i started grad school. man was this scary. i am doing well. but it is overwhelming, and takes up so much of my time that its ridiculous. maybe its good that i don't have too many friends after all ;)
**all in all. this year has found me a stronger, more secure person. Through the tears, the lonely nights, the men who stood me up on dates, the friends who left me out in the cold, the trials and tribulations, i walked away ;ok being alone, wiser, more mature, more in tune with god, and more in love with god than i thought was ever possible. I am looking forward to my 28th year and the overflow of blessings i am expecting to come my way. I feel like my life is about to burst open. New friends, new opportunities, new life, new blessings, new new new new new....happy birthday to me, for it is truly a new birth of me **
lets get the count down...
#1. I decided to turn my entire life over to God, and I have to say it has been the best decision of my entire life. I couldn't have dreamed for anything better. It has been a rougher road then i thought it would be, but i have learned some invaluable life lessons, and i have seen things i may not have seen, had my eyes not been focused on him.
#2. i moved into my own place with a friend of my, which in turn turned into the fiasco of the century when she left to move in with her boyfriend. I struggled with my budget at this point. but all in all i made it through. And though i have sworn off roommates for the rest of my life, and though my feelings were hurt beyond belief, it was a lesson that had to be learned.
#3. my best friend, moved back to Cali, leaving me almost completely alone and without my ace. without the one person who i can be completely myself around.... sad day. but i have learned to fend on my own. with only 2 real friends on my side.
#4. i started grad school. man was this scary. i am doing well. but it is overwhelming, and takes up so much of my time that its ridiculous. maybe its good that i don't have too many friends after all ;)
**all in all. this year has found me a stronger, more secure person. Through the tears, the lonely nights, the men who stood me up on dates, the friends who left me out in the cold, the trials and tribulations, i walked away ;ok being alone, wiser, more mature, more in tune with god, and more in love with god than i thought was ever possible. I am looking forward to my 28th year and the overflow of blessings i am expecting to come my way. I feel like my life is about to burst open. New friends, new opportunities, new life, new blessings, new new new new new....happy birthday to me, for it is truly a new birth of me **
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