31 years old. Trying to find my spot in this world. Trying to understand where I can plug myself in like a Lego and make an impact.
I mean does anyone ever really find it?
Do you find that place you fit perfectly. The people you fit perfectly with. And if so, how do you know?
All I know is throughout my life I am blessed to have interactions with the most wondrous of people. And I am moved by them. They take me to a different level in life, a different season.
I never want it to end.
It makes me wonder why God made these seasonal people at all? And why I can't keep just a few of them?
Even though I know why. They are all stepping stones to permanent people, and a more permanent me.
I hope, because of them, I become everything he intended. I hope my parents dreams for me come true. Shoot, I hope the dreams I have for myself, even just one, comes to fruition.
But most of all, right now in this moment, I hope I get to hold on to this truth that I feel. I hope the people in my life right now are permanent, and not seasonal.
I hope I never forget this feeling.
Knowing what it means to be happy. To be positive. To be dedicated. To feel peace. To feel beautiful from a look and no words. To feel wanted. To know I can change for the better. To know I am loved from all different directions.To know I am needed in someones space. To know that I bring joy.
To know true resilience. To know that despite what my months ago looked like, my today is great, and my tomorrow will be even better.
I am lovely. I am amazing. I am inspirational. I am, someone.
And I feel that. In my spirit.
You know I heard once, "you know the truth by the way it feels". Peace.
