overdrive....

I've been writing alot lately. Usually that means one of two things; either I have a broken heart or my mind is on overdrive. In this situation its the latter reason, and its so irritating. sometimes it gets very tiring being such an intuitive person. But I know that getting my thoughts out are healthy, so my blackberry is filled with memos!

I won't go into too much detail about that in this blog (boo hiss). I am sticking to the notion that some things are better left unsaid, and frankly I am getting tired of expressing certain things. Its just not necessary, in some situations my words get me nowhere. ho hum...

But, I have been having some exceptionally good conversations with friends lately. Me and my carpool buddy, John, were talking today about real music and where did it go. He asked me "how do you think rap music would be if Tupac and Biggie were still alive". Man what a loaded question!

Two legends, two of the best, two of my most favorite rappers in the entire world. If they were still alive? I hope things would be quite different. maybe rap music would have never evolved into what it has become; more pop than hip hop. It no longer makes me feel alive, its nothing I can relate to.

But then again, as the generations have changed, I'm not sure that this new generation would appreciate the music we loved from the 90s into the early 2000s. Everything now adays is just about feeling good. I miss the substance. I miss the way I felt when I would hear Tupac singing "I ain't mad atcha", or Biggie talking in "Big Poppa". I miss A Tribe Called Quest, and Nas in the early days. I miss Talib and Mos Def, and Dead Presidents. People who touched my soul. I mean I grew up in the suburbs but these people made me proud to be black, they made me understand that I was apart of something bigger than my family unit (the only black people I really knew from the ages of 0-13).

I respect every one's hustle. I understand that everyone is going to do what is popular to make money. And money is the name of the game.
But my heart just isn't in it anymore. I think I need to take it back to the old school.
Maybe if i resurrect the dead, it can cure this overdrive...