2012 came quickly.
It seems like just yesterday I was in my friends apartment ushering in 2011, crazy, we aren't even friends anymore.
2011 definitely proved to be a crazy year for me. As I said in one of my final 2011 statuses on facebook. I watched people walk out of my life, that I never thought I would see leave. I also saw people come in, that I don't want to let go of. My lasting friendships have only gotten deeper, and I love my family with a deeper love then I knew possible.
I also love myself more than I thought was possible. And I continue to grow in this love everyday, because I continue to learn not only more about myself, but more about my creator. This of course is vital in self love, to know the one who made you.
We look forward to every new year, making resolutions, promising that this year will be better than the last, but for most of us few things ever change. I don't make resolutions anymore. Every few months I make myself promises, and I keep them. I start new years for myself all the time, not just at the start of a new calendar year, and this keeps things fresh.
People say the world will end this year. I laugh, people say that every year. I still remember Y2K. we weren't supposed to make it past 2000! But we're still here. And I'd rather not predict when the world is going to end, instead I'd like to live my life as if it were my last anyway. Because frankly, any day could be my last, my next second of breath is not promised.
But something inside me tells me this year is going to be different. It's going to mark some monumental changes in my life. First and foremost, I am going to meet Stella (my niece, my first ever!) in about 3 weeks. This is the best way to bring in a new year, with new life. Second, I will be getting my Master's degree in June (and never going to school again, lol). Third I will hopefully be moving into a career where I can affect lives on a grander scale. Fourth, I'll be ending my "vacation" at my parents house and leaving for good. I plan to be more fiscally responsible than I have every been, to finally publish this poetry book, to volunteer, to hit the gym, to be active with my body, heart, and mind.
These are some big accomplishments, and some amazing things to look forward to. I might be a little bit of a late bloomer in some departments, but I move at my pace, and so far this pace has been securing blessings. Finally, I am going to be courageous enough to open myself up to someone this year. I think I finally found someone who compliments me, and opens my mind up to so many new ideas, and ways of thinking, and ways of being. I could list a million reasons as to why I am feeling the way I am feeling, but simply stated, "when you find something wonderful, you do what you can to hold on". I'm not letting go. I'm simply moving forward with hope in my heart, and trust in my ability to be resilient, should things not end up how I plan. As you so often say, "we don't know whats going to happen in the future" right?
I'm excited about 2012. Excited for a new grind in life. Excited for what God has in store for me. I'm also excited to see who stays and who gos. 2012 for me is a breath of fresh air...
What's 2012 for you?
No comments:
Post a Comment