future or the past

So I get these quotes sent to me everyday. Some of them are good, some I can't really relate to. The other day I got one in my in box and it struck a chord with me. "Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future" -Deepak K. Chopra. This made me think alot; about how I do things, and whether the way I approach situations in my life dooms me to repeat mistakes in the past.

Case in point number one. Normally I express myself very openly to people. I will tell you how I feel about you. If I love you I'll say it, if I don't really like you I'll say it. If I have an opinion, I'll say it. Some of these things I like about myself, because i think its important to be honest. But I am starting to notice that it is better to wait to say certain things until the right time. And it might also be better to just sit back and observe and listen. My opinion is not always needed, sometimes all that's needed is a head nod, and the look, that lets you know what I'm thinking if you know me, and if you don't, then you don't.

Number two, I used to make decisions too quickly. This is something I don't do too much anymore, but in some situations I know I want to jump the gun. I want things to happen now. I forget how good it is when things happen right when they are supposed to. (remember not my time by God's time). Like finding the right career path, moving out or away,  or simply just deciding on what furniture to buy for my new place. lol. everything can be done with precision, there really is such a beauty in baby steps. especially in decision making. When I take the time to think things out, I land in a much better position then I have in my past life.

Number three, this temper of mine. I get irritated too easy. A product of my parents I truly am, but a work in progress I vow to be. I notice latley less things upset me than they used to, and I handle my anger much better. I just take a woo sah moment, or call my big bro who understands me to the core of my being. Or I think about it, "what are you really mad about Heather, will this change your life". Of course I still have my days. But if there is one thing I have learned its that I am going to love better than what I have seen, I refuse to argue and yell and scream, I am going to treat my friends with respect and dignity, and I am going to treat myself with the same. At some point you've just got to calm down, and find your happy. I keep finding mine, and am less and less temperamental.

Finally, I just want to be better. You know each year around this time (birthday time) I reflect on everything. This past year, my whole life. And one resounding trend is, I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN THE PAST. I don't want anyone from the past coming back up, I don't want to repeat the mistakes of my past, and I don't want to be the person I was in the past. So no I won't react the same way I used to, I won't relish in the same actions that got me results I was extremely unhappy with.

What I will do is continue to change, continue to try to be a better me. Continue to move forward. You can't forget your past, but you don't have to be a slave to it.....

MOVE FORWARD...OR YOU WILL ALWAYS STAND STILL....