can you stand the rain

Today was not what I expected.
And I began to reflect on my past.
you know in all my past relationships, a fight meant the end. So now every time I fight with a significant other, I fear the end. The fight is never just a fight with an escalation and de-escalation, it becomes a time for my insecurities, anxiety and fears To flourish beyond belief. I remember everything i've done and try to think how I can do them differently.
so I thought of new edition, such simple words but not so much can you stand the rain, but can I.
am I able to endure, am I able to trust enough in what we have and who I am to you that I know a fight is not our demise?

Working on it. Scares me to death to think I may lose someone who means so much.